Syaoran...many years ago, Syaoran journeyed away from his home and to a new land. That's where he met Sakura- not the Sakura here, but the Sakura I mean when I say 'Sakura-chan'. She was the princess of that land, and they became fast friends. And...
[This. Is kind of awkward, given how Syaoran just declared his love for Takumi at the trial, but it's important to the story.]
...I suspect he would have said he loved her, if he had known the words to put to those feelings at that time. But regardless, he cared for her a lot, and would have done anything for her.
Sakura-chan, she was destined to die at age 14. And Syaoran saw her in the moment of her death. But in that moment, when she was about to die, his heart cried out in a single wish: 'please, I don't want her to die!'
And that's when he answered. I won't say his name, but he was a powerful sorcerer, one who had the power to grant wishes, just like I do. He heard Syaoran's wish, and he decided to grant it.
Reviving someone from the dead isn't technically impossible, but the results damage the universe. That's why it's taboo. And when Syaoran made that wish, he broke that taboo, and the universe was cracked. And since the universe has a habit of self-correcting, the price of that wish had to be paid, and it was a hefty one. Syaoran had to be removed from the stream of time entirely, giving up everything for the sake of that wish, in order to prevent further damage.
But he couldn't be removed from the universe without something else being left behind to fill that void. It would have caused more damage to the universe, as the universe would have tried to self-correct and fill that void. So, I was created to fill it instead.
That's the relationship between Syaoran and I: I am a copy of him, but at the same time I'm my own person. Because of how I was created, our lives are connected intrinsically. It had some rather unfortunate side-effects, and it really was a rush job to keep the universe from being damaged, but it is what it is.
Syaoran has a big heart. I told him to be careful, to really consider his feelings, but...for him to say something, he must have decided that he had room for both of you.
[That's what Watanuki would like to believe, at least.]
...yes. I once compared our situation to all of the Akiras in the Foundation, but it's deeper than that: we literally are the same person, the same existence. Not even just 'both Syaoran from different worlds', but the same person from the same world.
We have grown apart a little, partially out of necessity for both of us to keep existing, but that doesn't change the fact that we are the same person. We think similarly, we act similarly, and we know each other in a way that probably doesn't make sense to most people. So for him to disregard that connection and truly, honestly ask if I only saw him as a Piece, it hurt. It hurt a lot.
I see... I think I understand how it happened better now. If you feel that way for him then... his feelings were probably the same.
Only now you're a Witch. You ARE different from him in a very important way. That... had to be terrifying. I can understand wanting reassurance, even if it was in the worst way possible.
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Syaoran...many years ago, Syaoran journeyed away from his home and to a new land. That's where he met Sakura- not the Sakura here, but the Sakura I mean when I say 'Sakura-chan'. She was the princess of that land, and they became fast friends. And...
[This. Is kind of awkward, given how Syaoran just declared his love for Takumi at the trial, but it's important to the story.]
...I suspect he would have said he loved her, if he had known the words to put to those feelings at that time. But regardless, he cared for her a lot, and would have done anything for her.
Sakura-chan, she was destined to die at age 14. And Syaoran saw her in the moment of her death. But in that moment, when she was about to die, his heart cried out in a single wish: 'please, I don't want her to die!'
And that's when he answered. I won't say his name, but he was a powerful sorcerer, one who had the power to grant wishes, just like I do. He heard Syaoran's wish, and he decided to grant it.
Reviving someone from the dead isn't technically impossible, but the results damage the universe. That's why it's taboo. And when Syaoran made that wish, he broke that taboo, and the universe was cracked. And since the universe has a habit of self-correcting, the price of that wish had to be paid, and it was a hefty one. Syaoran had to be removed from the stream of time entirely, giving up everything for the sake of that wish, in order to prevent further damage.
But he couldn't be removed from the universe without something else being left behind to fill that void. It would have caused more damage to the universe, as the universe would have tried to self-correct and fill that void. So, I was created to fill it instead.
That's the relationship between Syaoran and I: I am a copy of him, but at the same time I'm my own person. Because of how I was created, our lives are connected intrinsically. It had some rather unfortunate side-effects, and it really was a rush job to keep the universe from being damaged, but it is what it is.
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[he rubs his face]
I knew he loved her, too. That's why I never... well, anyway.
[deep breath]
So that's why the Red hurt you so much. If anyone in this in verse should understand you, it should have been him.
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[That's what Watanuki would like to believe, at least.]
...yes. I once compared our situation to all of the Akiras in the Foundation, but it's deeper than that: we literally are the same person, the same existence. Not even just 'both Syaoran from different worlds', but the same person from the same world.
We have grown apart a little, partially out of necessity for both of us to keep existing, but that doesn't change the fact that we are the same person. We think similarly, we act similarly, and we know each other in a way that probably doesn't make sense to most people. So for him to disregard that connection and truly, honestly ask if I only saw him as a Piece, it hurt. It hurt a lot.
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Only now you're a Witch. You ARE different from him in a very important way. That... had to be terrifying. I can understand wanting reassurance, even if it was in the worst way possible.
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And I'm guessing wishing to bring him back is something we can't do.