[ Her hands shake a little. If she gets rejected...it'll hurt, but it'll fine. It'll be fine. ]
Talking with you...makes me happy, and when I started having dinner with you, I was hoping my cooking would impress you, so I started making it as good as I could, and--you're really kind, and the face you make when you get flustered is really cute, and--
I don't age. Eventually it would reach a point where people would ask you if I'm your son. And then, eventually, grandson. I can't stay in any one world, I have to be where the shop is. I'm not even human anymore, I'm more of a 'concept' than a person at this point. We're so far apart from each other, and...well...most people can't handle being with someone like that, and I wouldn't hold it against you if you can't either.
[He's not saying 'no', but. It's a very serious thing. And he's not sure if she could handle it.]
[ And then she has this weird expression on her face that's stuck between relief and confusion, because this is exactly why she expected to get rejected--and he's still saying it but it's not with a rejection. ]
I was thinking...you might say something like that. And that's what I kept thinking, 'because I'm a human, nothing's going to happen.'
[ ..... ]
I don't care. I love the friends I made with the people here, but--if it comes down to that, I'd rather stay with you than go back with them. And it's--it's not just because I like you. It's because I don't want you to feel lonely, either. Even if I only have another 60 years in me, it's more than I had a few months ago, and I'd rather give them to you.
It's not exactly the same thing, but listen--Rider's a Servant, she's a person who lived thousands of years ago on a different continent turned into a monster. But I still love her. Even if she'll outlive me and I'll just be a fraction of a second in her memory, which will go on for eternity when she goes back to the Throne of Heroes. I still love her. And I feel the same about you.
[He wants to be cool and keep a calm voice and have this conversation like a wise, experienced person would. He's 118, and this isn't the first time he's had this talk with someone. But the way she's so open about it, and how she's willing to give her his everything, it...]
aaaaAAAAA you can't just say stuff like that!
[It makes him blush furiously and get so, so flustered.]
You can't just give up all of your time so freely like that! It's not an even trade! Y-you should at least be asking for the same amount of time from me in return!
It doesn't have to be an official wish, no. Just wanting to be there is enough.
Though, um...if you really want all of that, there's some other stuff you should know about. It's not bad, I promise! It's just a part of being 'with me', I guess.
[He even says 'with me', like a fukken teenager asking his first crush out. What a disaster.]
It's just that. Well. You wouldn't be the first person I've dated, and the memory of the others echoes through my life. They're dead now, but I still talk about them sometimes.
[ nnnnnnn if he's bringing this up she should probably mention Shirou, shouldn't she ]
I...mmm, how do I put it? There was a person I knew for a while who I used to be with. I loved him a lot, he helped me through the difficult things that happened in my life.
But I don't know if I'm ever going to see him again. There's always going to be a part of me that's attached to him, though, so I understand the feeling.
If it's in the past, I don't mind. It would be hypocritical of me, I've dated people before too.
But if it's current, and you still wanted to involve him in some way, we would all have to discuss it. I've gotten burned before by lovers upset at me for 'stealing their boyfriend or girlfriend', and I'd rather not experience that again.
[Surprise, this is why he cares about 'not being a homewrecker'.]
It's not an automatic 'I'm not okay with it', though. I was with Doumeki and Himawari at the same time, and it worked for a while.
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[ Her hands shake a little. If she gets rejected...it'll hurt, but it'll fine. It'll be fine. ]
Talking with you...makes me happy, and when I started having dinner with you, I was hoping my cooking would impress you, so I started making it as good as I could, and--you're really kind, and the face you make when you get flustered is really cute, and--
[ .... ]
...I really, really like you.
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It looks like Syaoran was right after all. Not that he'd ever tell him that.]
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I don't age. Eventually it would reach a point where people would ask you if I'm your son. And then, eventually, grandson. I can't stay in any one world, I have to be where the shop is. I'm not even human anymore, I'm more of a 'concept' than a person at this point. We're so far apart from each other, and...well...most people can't handle being with someone like that, and I wouldn't hold it against you if you can't either.
[He's not saying 'no', but. It's a very serious thing. And he's not sure if she could handle it.]
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Huh? ]
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I don't care. I love the friends I made with the people here, but--if it comes down to that, I'd rather stay with you than go back with them. And it's--it's not just because I like you. It's because I don't want you to feel lonely, either. Even if I only have another 60 years in me, it's more than I had a few months ago, and I'd rather give them to you.
It's not exactly the same thing, but listen--Rider's a Servant, she's a person who lived thousands of years ago on a different continent turned into a monster. But I still love her. Even if she'll outlive me and I'll just be a fraction of a second in her memory, which will go on for eternity when she goes back to the Throne of Heroes. I still love her. And I feel the same about you.
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aaaaAAAAA you can't just say stuff like that!
[It makes him blush furiously and get so, so flustered.]
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Wh-What? What did I say?
[ DID IT COME OUT AS LESS HEARTFELT THAN SHE THOUGHT IT DID??? ]
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[Why is this happening
Why are they such losers]
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Sakura smiles ]
Can I? I didn't think I was in a position to be asking that, since you're pretty busy, but alright.
What are you doing, for the next 60 years?
[ THIS IS NOT HOW YOU ASK SOMEONE OUT OH MY GOD BOTH OF YOU ]
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Let's start with 'the next few months' and work our way up from there.
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T-That's not what I meant...! It's not-- [ THAT HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH MARRIAGE, GOSH ]
...um. Really?
[ what is wrong with them ]
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My shop is always open to anyone who has a wish. Even if that wish is 'I want to see the shopkeeper.'
...so yes, I. Don't mind. If you visit.
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She laughs. It's a really giddy-sounding, relieved laughter. ]
Ahahaha....o-okay! Um, I--I...
[ excited stammering continues. ]
...is that going to be an official wish, or something just between us? [ huehuehue ]
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Though, um...if you really want all of that, there's some other stuff you should know about. It's not bad, I promise! It's just a part of being 'with me', I guess.
[He even says 'with me', like a fukken teenager asking his first crush out. What a disaster.]
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Hmm? What is it?
[ He doesn't look upset so she's really wondering what this could be about ]
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That...wouldn't be a problem, would it?
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No, of course not.
[ nnnnnnn if he's bringing this up she should probably mention Shirou, shouldn't she ]
I...mmm, how do I put it? There was a person I knew for a while who I used to be with. I loved him a lot, he helped me through the difficult things that happened in my life.
But I don't know if I'm ever going to see him again. There's always going to be a part of me that's attached to him, though, so I understand the feeling.
Is that...okay with you?
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If it's in the past, I don't mind. It would be hypocritical of me, I've dated people before too.
But if it's current, and you still wanted to involve him in some way, we would all have to discuss it. I've gotten burned before by lovers upset at me for 'stealing their boyfriend or girlfriend', and I'd rather not experience that again.
[Surprise, this is why he cares about 'not being a homewrecker'.]
It's not an automatic 'I'm not okay with it', though. I was with Doumeki and Himawari at the same time, and it worked for a while.
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[ a beat ]
...you did?
[ okay she is curious about this apparent 3-way relationship now ]
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