If you're reading this, then it means my plan failed. As much as I hate to think about that possibility, I wanted to be prepared for it. Hopefully I will be ripping this letter up in the morning and you will be none the wiser.
But if you do read this, then I want you to know one thing: I'm so, so sorry it came to this. That said, I don't regret it in the slightest.
The Wordsmith isn't going to let us go, not without someone actually winning this game of his. We need to fight back, to stop him and get ourselves free on our own terms. And, knowing that, it had to be me. My time is stopped, and I don't know if I can even die. That's better odds than pretty much everyone else here. I don't expect you to be okay with that explanation, but hopefully you can understand it.
I'm leaving Mugetsu in your care. I know you will do right by him. I already explained things to him, so he knows what is going on.
I know you might never forgive me for this, and I can accept that. But I just want you to know one thing: I'm glad we were friends. Out of everyone who is still alive, you're the one I'm going to miss the most. But death isn't the end, and I know we're going to see each other again someday. If you've forgiven me by then, I hope we can be friends again.
[There is a part hastily scribbled at the bottom:]
I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I tried to tonight, when we were baking, but I lost my nerve at the last moment. I didn't want you to get hurt by the Wordsmith if I failed.
Hopefully you never read this letter, but I have to write it. Just in case.
I'm about to do something really reckless. I know I've been saying "just hold on, we will find a way out", but I've come to realize that we have to fight back against the Wordsmith to get out of here. So, this is how I'm going to fight. And if I fail, then at least I failed while trying to save everyone.
But I wanted you to know how much you affected me. I'm who I am today because of you. You're so kind and forgiving, sometimes I can't help but wonder how you manage it. But I appreciate everything you've done for us, and I'm going to miss you a lot.
I know we'll meet again, somehow. Probably not as 'Hanyuu' and 'Kimihiro', but we will meet again. Until then, please take care of yourself.
I have one last request for you too: at the wish shop there are two girls, Maru and Moro. They're my charges, and they're going to be lost without me there. If you could find them and take care of them for me, I would appreciate it.
If I fail and get killed, at least learn this from my failure: you can mail things to the Wordsmith. He might be more hesitant to open packages now, but use that knowledge however you want.
Please take care of Hanyuu. You know how she is, I'm worried about her hurting herself while she's off forgiving everyone. And take care of Silver for me too, okay? I know he's going to be upset.
Finally: thank you for being my friend. I know we didn't always get along, but I'm glad I met you. Don't let this experience scare you off from making more friends in the future, either. I would hate to miss the chance to see you again.
I know the last two months have been really hard on you, and this isn't going to be any easier. But please, don't give up on people. Don't keep to yourself, open up and meet someone new. Make new friends. Keep caring.
Right before I met the boy who would eventually become my first real friend, I found a dying cat. There was nothing I could do for it but hold it as it passed on. And as it did, all I could think to myself was "I'll die like this too. Alone." That feeling of being truly alone, that nobody will care when you are gone, that's the absolute worst.
So don't let yourself become like that. You have friends now, don't shut them out. And keep making new friends too. As much as it hurts when people die, it's nothing compared to the ache of being truly alone.
Take care of yourself, and I hope to see you soon.
I know we didn't really talk much up until these last few weeks, but getting to know you has been an experience. When you get out of here, don't dwell on the memories of this place. Don't become someone who uses words like 'Cryoblood' unironically. I think everyone else is going to need your brand of humor in the coming days.
Also, I don't know what's going on between you and Lusamine, but don't let it get you down, alright?
See you soon.
PS: there's cookies in the kitchen, go eat them. Silver and I made them together tonight.
Sorry I worried you so much. And if things turn out for the worse, I'm sorry we couldn't save everyone. Hopefully things aren't as bad as we feared on Tuesday, though.
Take care of yourself, alright? I would hate to see you get sick because of a lack of self-care.
I know it's hard, to keep on living as people you care about die. But you're strong, and not just in a physical sense either. I'm sure you'll be alright. But if you ever feel like you're not alright, then find someone to talk to. Make more friends, okay? You're a good person, and I don't want you to be sad anymore.
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Silver
But if you do read this, then I want you to know one thing: I'm so, so sorry it came to this. That said, I don't regret it in the slightest.
The Wordsmith isn't going to let us go, not without someone actually winning this game of his. We need to fight back, to stop him and get ourselves free on our own terms. And, knowing that, it had to be me. My time is stopped, and I don't know if I can even die. That's better odds than pretty much everyone else here. I don't expect you to be okay with that explanation, but hopefully you can understand it.
I'm leaving Mugetsu in your care. I know you will do right by him. I already explained things to him, so he knows what is going on.
I know you might never forgive me for this, and I can accept that. But I just want you to know one thing: I'm glad we were friends. Out of everyone who is still alive, you're the one I'm going to miss the most. But death isn't the end, and I know we're going to see each other again someday. If you've forgiven me by then, I hope we can be friends again.
[There is a part hastily scribbled at the bottom:]
I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I tried to tonight, when we were baking, but I lost my nerve at the last moment. I didn't want you to get hurt by the Wordsmith if I failed.
Hanyuu
I'm about to do something really reckless. I know I've been saying "just hold on, we will find a way out", but I've come to realize that we have to fight back against the Wordsmith to get out of here. So, this is how I'm going to fight. And if I fail, then at least I failed while trying to save everyone.
But I wanted you to know how much you affected me. I'm who I am today because of you. You're so kind and forgiving, sometimes I can't help but wonder how you manage it. But I appreciate everything you've done for us, and I'm going to miss you a lot.
I know we'll meet again, somehow. Probably not as 'Hanyuu' and 'Kimihiro', but we will meet again. Until then, please take care of yourself.
I have one last request for you too: at the wish shop there are two girls, Maru and Moro. They're my charges, and they're going to be lost without me there. If you could find them and take care of them for me, I would appreciate it.
See you again someday.
Elda
Please take care of Hanyuu. You know how she is, I'm worried about her hurting herself while she's off forgiving everyone. And take care of Silver for me too, okay? I know he's going to be upset.
Finally: thank you for being my friend. I know we didn't always get along, but I'm glad I met you. Don't let this experience scare you off from making more friends in the future, either. I would hate to miss the chance to see you again.
Estelle
Right before I met the boy who would eventually become my first real friend, I found a dying cat. There was nothing I could do for it but hold it as it passed on. And as it did, all I could think to myself was "I'll die like this too. Alone." That feeling of being truly alone, that nobody will care when you are gone, that's the absolute worst.
So don't let yourself become like that. You have friends now, don't shut them out. And keep making new friends too. As much as it hurts when people die, it's nothing compared to the ache of being truly alone.
Take care of yourself, and I hope to see you soon.
Guzma
Also, I don't know what's going on between you and Lusamine, but don't let it get you down, alright?
See you soon.
PS: there's cookies in the kitchen, go eat them. Silver and I made them together tonight.
Lusamine
Take care of yourself, alright? I would hate to see you get sick because of a lack of self-care.
See you soon.
Sportacus
Hopefully I'll be seeing all of you again someday, either as I am now or in another life, but in case I don't, I want you to have this:
[He has included a recipe for orange marmalade that is made from only oranges and honey.]
Jasper
See you soon.